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Thursday
Nov132025

Drum

From the 4th floor balcony you see the yellow elementary school building. Students are obedient. Teachers are bored, overworked and underpaid. Drones. Going through chalk and talk with dry drab emotions. Memorize the text. Grammar rules. Close your mouth and open your ears. Vomit the material.

A red flag with a bright five-point yellow star is silent. All the hot air is in the classroom. The educational skin drum at the school echoes a long deep resonating thunder. Vibrations bounce off clouds and granite mountains. It is large and stretched tight. Clouds and mountains? No the skin drum.

Remember all the amazing drums at the Ethnology Museum over centuries and A Century Is Nothing, but a long now, drums here are essential for communicating over distance.

Drum language has two tones.

Be the drum, frequency and vibration, said little drummer boy pounding out his message. Thump. Thump. Thump. Three heavy beats. Vibrations echo across Sapa space and curl around the lake into eastern mountains.

Drums call young tribal members. All the children gather. Be the drum with mind-at-large.

It is seasonal mountain music saying plant, weave art, make children, tend animals, harvest fields, celebrate life, all the gathering of Black, White, Flower Hmong, Red Dzao, Tay. Community.

 

Spirit. Storytellers. Animism. Integrity. Authenticity. Nature is your inspiration, guide and teacher.

You live in an amazing art museum.

Cheap foreign plastic factory junk overwhelms natural fiber markets, threading globalization.

Joyful female cloth sellers in the old fabric market sustain energies in their sewing community.

The Hmong and Red Dzao women walk from their villages to stay in Sapa for 3-4 days like their daughters. If they sell or don’t sell they return to their village.

It’s a long walk. 

Book of Amnesia Unabridged

 

 

 

Wednesday
Nov052025

Michelangelo Explains How Sapa Works

American, 50’s and married to a Hmong woman. She sews and sells in the cloth market. This is how it works, he said. The exploitation of local people in Sapa means Vietnamese own the hotels and control tour groups. Local guides make $5 a day. All the money goes to Vietnamese businesses. There’s no autonomy for minority hill tribe people.      

Tourists and travelers need to arrange individual Sapa travel plans. Be independent. This way they support the local people. Spend money directly with the locals. Tourists need to be made aware of this reality, especially when in Hanoi making plans. Most foreign visitors stay 2-3 days then out. The local government tour office controls the home-stay business and limits the economic potential of the Hmong.

I walked into the Sapa Tourist Office. A friendly fat Vietnamese man in a suit sat behind a big clean teak desk. He assumes I’m a new arrival. We chat about Sapa.

Can I make home stay arrangements with the Hmong?

Alarm bells exploded his round passive face. Oh no! You mustn’t do that. Years ago we had trouble. A foreigner did that and ended up missing in some village. He was killed.

Wow, really.

Yes, we expect foreigners to make arrangements through us. They have to be careful dealing with the local people. We have a responsibility for visitors, thinking they are Noble Savages.

I see. Thanks.

He looked at his big fake gold watch. Time for lunch. Let’s Eat. 

 

 

Buy Day Mountain by Light

A Sapa park loves baby red roses. A fractured historical liberation statue is dusty. The neglected fountain has brackish water.

Six Red Dzao women talk with threaded samples on the ground.

Do you want to buy from me, said one, smiling her golden teeth.

Yes, I want to buy the mountain, pointing to the rising green western forest, steel gray granite slabs, deep shaded mysterious valleys with rolling gray clouds dancing around the edges escaping from peaks toward us.

Ok, she said. I will sell you the day mountain for 10,000 and the night mountain for 10,000.

Ok, It’s a deal. We laugh in this precious moment. 

 

 

Most tourists disguised as humans do not really meet, know and understand the locals. They are in a big fat fucking hurry. Travelers are slow, involved, patient, caring, kind, curious and absorbing the lessons they need to learn.

Travelers discover, tourists find.

Time is the greatest wealth. The soul travels at the speed of a camel.

Predicting the future is hard work, said Tran. It’s a dynamic equilibrium. Natural energies play ancient drums pounding children to class, gathering laughter, echoes rise on water, diamonds rest on a bamboo leaf. Water music. Patience. Zen.

Crazy Cloud said, Trust and Innocence and Patience are guides. Cherish them.

Inner Voice said, The oracle speaks the truth. It represents clarity transcending dualities. Whatever you do: sleep, eat, rest, walk, speak, or practice silence, truth and beauty is silent. This radiant vibrant blissful song of yourself is grace, gratitude and beauty, a ray of light from beyond this world.

A Rebel said, Be the master of your own destiny. You have broken the chains of society’s repressive conditioning and opinion onions. Anybody who is not miserable looks like a stranger.

An enlightened person is the greatest stranger in the world. They do not belong to anybody. No organization, no community, no society, no nation confines them.

Playing my blues harp I blow and I draw, said Leo. I express my crazy rebellious literary intuitive instincts. I dream rainbows of light with Hmong, Dzao, Tay people walking, singing in mountains, filling air skies and hearts with their song, their stories, this symphony of voices are direct immediate sensations. Mist mountains fly into sky, a blessing with gratitude. 

Book of Amnesia Unabridged

Tuesday
Oct282025

Mi's Story

I don’t know how to read. I can speak a little English. My name is Mi like my song. I sing for tourists when they come to Sapa.

My village is a two-hour walk away. My tribe is the Hmong people. We have lived in the mountains of northwest Vietnam for many years. I don’t know how many. My grandfather lived 120 years and my grandmother 110. I am between about 8.

My mother is Sa. I learned English from tourists who came here before I was born yesterday. They come to hike in the mountains, relax and do a home stay in my village. Maybe you want to know why I can’t read.

I don’t go to school. My mother says I need to make money. She says I need to help our family so I walk to Sapa and sell handicrafts we make. Sometimes I stay in Sapa with my friends. I go to school sometimes and I like it. I have friends there, get to play, have fun and learn new things.

I like speaking English with the tourists. My real school is on the street.

Sometimes I lie to the tourists and tell them I go to school. I went to my village school for nine years. That’s it, that’s all the years I have there. I am finished. My formal education runs into a problem. It’s called M-o-n-e-y.

The school in Sapa costs too much money. I have little chance now. But it’s OK because I can stay in a room in Sapa with other girls so I don’t have to walk for two hours. And then I can meet tourists outside their hotel or restaurant or when they are walking around and I can sell my things to them.

When I am older I can take them to my village for a home stay. This is what older Hmong girls do. It’s a good chance for me to speak English and even learn some French.

Maybe someday I can go to school and learn to read.

 

 Mi

 

17 September Sapa

I sit in a Vietnamese breakfast stall eating sticky rice pancakes filled with onions covered in a brown fried garnish.

I am invisible to the suspicious rich woman in her boredom living in this cold mountain town bossing boys and girls around. They cut green vegetables and work the wok as her empty profit eye dances at a Hanoi businessman wearing filthy dress shoes recovering from a night of drink and bar girls while hearing the Hello of an old one-eyed Hmong women offering a handmade key trinket, her labor from a long dark cold night.

She embroiders her daylight hope of economic potential.

Across the path a young boy plays with plastic toys, action man, a green bulldozer and a sharp rusty knife handle. Sitting alone he manipulates toys while his mother prowls the market seeking fresh meat as his father bangs his morning mistress in her secret garden. All the pieces fall into place.

Around the Sapa traffic circle near the church above the tented commercial zone under blue tarps where Hmong sell their work are sixteen motorcycle honchos. Easy riders. They wait for tourists. Any tourists. Some tourists. One tourist.

Maybe a Hmong woman with her heavy bamboo basket loaded with hemp or an infant on her back needing transport to her village after a day of walking, selling, buying, seeing friends.

A thick white rolling fog obscures vision. Visibility drops to 200’ in a mystery mist. A shroud shouts, See the totality of phenomena.

 

Mo

Book of Amnesia Unabridged

Monday
Oct202025

Finch's Cage

After seeing Tao I found an Internet cafe and sat outside.

I met a human-bird.

Finch had a yellow chest, red beak and brown feathers. It was outside the plate glass door. It had escaped from its small bamboo cage in the main room.

Someone, perhaps the young mother worried about her wailing infant or her old mother worried about dying alone or her brother worried about dying of boredom had left the cage door open.

Finch was outside. It sang, Where’s my home, what is this beautiful world?

Finch hugged the ground. It saw trees across the street. It saw a blue sky and inhaled clear, clean mountain air. It heard birds singing in trees but it didn’t understand them. Their songs were about nesting, flying, clouds, sky, rain, warm sun, rivers, bark, worms, snails, and melodies of nature’s freedom.

I wondered if Finch would fly away. I hoped so however I knew it was afraid to go. It was obvious.

It lacked real flying experience, where you lift off beating your wings to get up and get going to escape gravity’s weight pulling you down as freedom pulls you up into everything new and exciting reaching an attitude or altitude and you turn glide and relax feeling air beneath your wings. You soar free.

Finch, conditioned to a caged world of perch, food and water looked and listened to the world. This was enough.

Finch retreated from the possibility of freedom and pecked at loose seeds in a narrow crevice below the glass door. It smelled the dark stale room where the cage waited. It needed someone to rescue it.

It sang, Help, Let me in. I want to come home. I’ve been outside and I’ve seen enough. It’s a big scary place. I promise I’ll never try to escape again. I was curious, that’s all, I’ve seen enough. Please let me in.

Finch was amazing in its beauty. Yellow, red, brown, bright-eyed in its small alert aloneness.

An old woman came out, trapped it in a purple cloth and returned Finch to its cage. She closed the bamboo door and snapped the latch shut.

Did you learn your lesson little bird, she whispered.

Finch sat on its perch, had a long cool drink of water singing, Thank you now I am truly happy.

The old woman didn’t understand this language, muttered under her breath about inconvenience and shuffled down a long dark hallway to kill a chicken for lunch. 

Book of Amnesia Unabridged

 

 

Monday
Oct132025

Sa, Mo, Mi

I rescued a brown moth from room 402 to fly free.

A white yellow dawn sun explodes over mountains. A brilliant rainbow arches over high green western hills in perfect harmony.

I met Sa, a Black Hmong woman. We walked around the cloth market discussing fabric quality.

She said, A Hmong woman in the far north mountains was kidnapped by Chinese men from Yunnan, taken over the border and forced into prostitution. When she became pregnant she was taken to a remote cabin in the mountains and kept there as a prisoner, one day she escaped with her child and returned to Sapa.

She’s the one over there crying and sewing her life story into cloth. Human trafficking is a persistent world problem.

Sa talked about the lack of Hmong shops in Sapa. We sat with mountains, sky, clouds, kids and stories.

 

Sa and daughter Ku

 

Sa’s Home

Small steps wind down steep trails. Sa identifies wild plants used for indigo colors and their clothing. The undulating terrain of rising rice terraces supports people harvesting rice. People cut, thresh, stack yellow stalks and burn them. Isolated puffs of black smoke signals wave in the valley below green forests and purple mountains. They have one crop of rice per year. The south has two.

It’s a long simple home with a dirt floor and bamboo walls. Wooden walls are expensive. The home is divided into a kitchen, main room and bedroom. The main room has a TV and DVD. Under the roof is a storage area. Outside is a water faucet, a bamboo holder for toothbrushes, a water buffalo pen, a pigpen and a writing pen. 

Imagination’s pen rearranges words. Words are masks to conceal fears of speaking the truth.  

The more words the bigger the fear.

Words hide in bamboo clouds, foliage, in flowing rivers, on slippery rocks, slithering inside important life experiences. Words form languages speaking indigo cloth, dyed in a large vat and hanging to dry on a wooden wall.

Stacked sacks of straw for winter’s feeding are ready. Twenty-five kilogram bags of rice in blue, white and orange plastic bags marked Made in Indonesia are piled in a corner. Sa’s husband drives water buffalo home.

We share a simple lunch prepared by one of Sa’s three daughters. She is 19, a mother and a trek leader speaking fluent English. Many girls marry at sweet sixteen. We share rice, tofu, greens and stories.

 

 

Cat-Cat Village, Mo and My Munchkins by Tao

Cat-Cat village is buried down a long meandering rough flag stone steep path descending to rivers and bamboo forests below rolling hills and mountains.

Steps lead past bamboo homes. Women wash and dry long streamers of blue indigo cloth for bags and clothing. It stains their hands a dark gray-blue shade. Naked Hmong kids play, pee, run, stare and take care of siblings. All the homes have tables outside selling silver, woven bags, wall hangings, shirts and hand-carved stone souvenirs.

 

 

Steps lead into forests near a wide river and a waterfall. Hanoi tourists run around taking photos of each other with roaring water in the background yelling, Look, a waterfall, Jump!

There is a small Hmong theatre behind shops. A Hanoi team from Open Community Solution Investment Joint Marxist Hit Them With A Stick Company films dancing Hmong girls.

A Hmong boy plays a small mouth harp. Hmong girls sit and embroider.

Boys smoke watching the action. Everyone shifts outside where the Hanoi dwarf star sits with two Hmong girls. They show him how to move a needle through fabric as the waterfall roars behind them. It’s the most complicated action he’s ever rehearsed.

 

 

The director yells, ACTION. The star embroiders. The girls help him.

CUT, yells the director. He gives directions.

Take two. ACTION!

Just get to the verb, said Tran.

Young girls carry baskets loaded with kindling up steep stone steps to their village home. One smiling girl hauls two gigantic logs on her bamboo basket. Her laborious elementary education hauls the world on her young back.

 

 

I visit Chocolate & Baguette to speak with Ms. Tao about their humanitarian work and hospitality training school. The C&B is a boutique hotel with four rooms and extensive menu in Vietnamese, French and English. The headquarters is in Hanoi. 

Hearing disadvantaged, blind and destitute children attend the Hoa Sua School for training and education in hotel services, bakery, housekeeping and English. They return home with skills to find meaningful employment. They are empowered.

 

 

Mo, 10 and My 8, two little Hmong munchkin friends work the street. My is a street urchin wearing a dirty green t-shirt, jeans and filthy yellow perforated sandals. Everyone wears these cheap sandals except older girls leading treks in stable Teva sandals.

Buy from me, she pleaded.

What do you have? She pulled out long embroidered wallets, colorful wristbands and postcards.

Look, here, cheap, thrusting them at me. Miniature vultures feast on a hapless victim.

Ah, I remember you from yesterday.

Sapa’s a small place and it doesn’t take long for all the street sellers to make your acquaintance if you are friendly and curious.

I walked down stone steps to a rusty museum gate and pivot.

Where are you going?

Down to the market, said Mo.

Ok, Let’s go together. We passed sidewalk vendors on a circle of grass ringed with blue tarps, stuff, dreamers and teams of Hmong and red Dzao women bargaining over hemp quality.

Are you hungry? I’m going to the market for coffee.

Ok. SOP is for the young girls to canvas streets, hotels and restaurants where tourists go. They wait.

We hung out in the market overlooking valleys, fog, hills, and steel blue wisps of flying water. They were hungry. The chicken soup was delicious. I suggested we meet the next day for lunch in the market. They said they had a good day selling belts, bags, purses and handiwork.

Their reality is the street. Mo has limited school opportunities. My mom said I need to make money.

Book of Amnesia Unabridged